I’ve always had big dreams. Sometimes they are bigger than I’m able to accomplish, at least without more work and time. I’m also impatient and these two things don’t really go together.
Since the surgery, I’ve spent an inordinate amount of time laying around on the couch. During that stretch, my dreams, my goals, got bigger. The difference is I have no choice but to practice patience. Will this help push the dreams forward? Will it help me accomplish them? Yeah, I think so.
When I’ve failed in the past, and that’s been all too often, I was lazy, mentally and physically. Before the surgery, I was on a good path with both diet (noun) and exercise. My running was getting better and I was really loving it for the first time in my life.
Emergency surgery never comes at the right time. Heck, what surgery does? The good news is I am looking forward to getting back out there. The bad news is I don’t know when that will be.
In the meantime, I keep accomplishing goals in my head. I climb mountains. I ride my bike across the country. I cross the Grand Canyon. I hike with my kids. I run further than I’ve ever gone – marathon, ultramarathon.
Being mentally prepared is a big part of achieving what I want. Age seems to make me stronger. Or at least I can handle the pain better.
This layoff has to be the catalyst to bigger accomplishments. I’m ready upstairs, I just need my body to fully heal. For now, I’ll keep doing great things in my head.